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Monday, 16 January 2017

Reflection and confessions

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Reflecting on my life is not something I particularly enjoy doing;  in fact, I quite literally actively avoid it. I am my own worst critic and I tend to be very hard on myself when things “don’t go according to plan” even if they’re beyond my control. The past four years have just kind of blended together in a goalless blur with no defining moments separating them and I feel so very stuck. The fear of facing the cumulative time, energy and resources  I cannot physically account and atone for is damn near paralyzing  and  completely overshadows any sense of joy and accomplishment from the fruits of my labour. . .thats if there are any. If want to change this, I’m going to have to face the music and set goals for myself, write them down so I can see them and crush them. Lets do this.